Jadyn

Today is Jadyn's birthday, he turns four today.  I miss him very much.

I never posted about Jadyn specifically because I wasn't really sure what to say.  I always knew this situation would end badly, and I was dead on.  I won't say much, but will say this:

Joneya was struggling in Rhode Island and needed a fresh start.  We were in the position to offer that fresh start to her, so we did.  We helped her and Jadyn get here, and let them live in the old house with Shandi to get on her feet.  We helped her get a job.

And within the first month, we knew it wasn't going to work out.  And it didn't.  It went horribly wrong.  

Joneya and Jadyn went back to Rhode Island two weeks ago after an altercation between Joe and Joneya that led to Joneya's arrest.  She has decided that we will not get to see Jadyn anymore.  That is her decision, we will deal with it.

I'm not going to go into details about what happened, because it's messy and I just don't want to talk about it.  I am fine, Joe is fine, we are all fine.  We were all quite shaken up after it happened, but neither of us were surprised.

I love Joneya, and I love Jadyn.  It is very sad that she could not make it work out for them here, especially for Jadyn's sake.  But, I accept Joneya's decision to keep him away from us and we will move on.  I have some precious memories of him and the time we spent together, and we spent a lot of time together.  I took care of him while Joneya was at work, and was able to spend a lot of one on one time with him, which he desperately needed.  

I will pray for both of them every night for the rest of my life.  I pray for stability for Jadyn, I pray that Joneya will find her way.  I'm angry.  I could say a thousand ugly and angry things right  now, but I won't because it certainly won't help.

And I will always love that little booger, "Grandma's little buddy" as he used to call himself.  I knew when I dropped him off that night that it would be the last time I ever saw him.  I just knew it, I could feel it.  And I told him to NEVER forget how much I loved him, ever.  He promised me he wouldn't ever forget, and I hope he doesn't.  I hope he remembers all the fun we had, and how much I loved him.

Happy Birthday sweet boy.  Grandma loves you with her whole heart, all the time.